i've been ignoring this as of late, a little bit because things are happening in real life that i'm trying to adjust to, but also revelations that i want to keep to myself for a little while.
it's kind of fun, like walking around holding a secret that no one else knows. it's common knowledge to my close friends that i smile a lot, usually at something i find funny/odd/weird/endearing in my head, but i know won't translate if i try to explain it to someone else. they'll either end up looking at me like i'm from another planet, or offer a half geniune laugh. it's better to just say nothing and secretly tuck the thought away into a tiny corner of my brain.
brian came into town this weekend, and it's always good to see him. talking to him online every day doesn't substitute for having one of your closest friends in the same room as you, and being able to laugh at something stupid or be honest about something, or even sit in comfortable silence. there's many people in my life where if i don't see them for a while, i begin to imagine good qualities that they don't actually have, and then miss them more than i should. not brian though. he is the most singularily genuine, thoughtful, caring, real person that i know. i value his friendship almost more than anyone else's. plus, he brought me a llama from Peru. how many people can say that about their best friend?
