so it's official. i'm off to the big city of toronto, canada in less than a week. i'm terrified. not terrified to live there, because it seems rather cool and fun and there's amazingly lovely places to shop and eat and drink and do yoga and hang out. i'm a little scared for my new job, and have been having those dreams where you show up naked to school, except i'm showing up naked to work. and i have these little nagging fits of psychosis, where i think "what if no one like me, and i dress wrong the first day, and i have to eat lunch all alone for the rest of my life". so it's rather much like being anxious for the first day of a new school, and i remember it rather well from high school and then university.
dropped dad off at physio yesterday, and of course the only thing to do was to go shopping. ended up here and bought jewelry from these people. it's a beautiful silver circle necklace, but now i'm coveting the angel wing pendant. luckily they have stores in toronto, so happy birthday to myself once i get settled in.
as a result, i've been trying to spend as much time as possible with my ladies before we all split off into different directions. aila's already in syracuse, and her abscence is greatly felt. it's difficult, because she's always been far away, so i'm kind of used to it. i'm not used to steph being gone. probably one of the harder things about this summer will be saying bye to her. we hung out today, and there's so much great stuff there: comfortable silences, laughing at the same jokes and pushing them really far so we're the only people in the room that still find them funny, gorging on junk food. i know over the past few years we've grown apart a little bit, but there's always this underlying security that she's going to be there, and i hope that never disappears.
so i have to quickly finish my to-do list, and drive down to toronto this weekend to look for a 2 bedroom apartment. me and heath found our dream home online, so keep your fingers crossed for us.
