I never really believed that this blog would last this long. I thought I'd get bored again, in the same way I always have and in a fit of modesty I'd pull everything down. It makes me feel better though, that the things I'm scared to say to people are here, and that I know the people who I want to know about it will read it.
It's sunny outside today, which means it's cold but I'm glad. Sunshine has this particular way of seeping through all the cracks, to shine into all the normally dark spaces in my room at school. I'll be glad for the sunglasses that I have to wear on the car ride home. On Thursday all I wanted was to be left alone, and no one would do it, thankfully. Now I just want to be surrounded by people, which I will be for the next few days. A wise woman said "keep your family and friends close by to love.", and I'll be doing that over the next few days.
Here's my wisdom: tragedy brings people close together. Never be afraid to ask for something; people can't read your mind and more often than not they're willing to understand why you're asking. I think that we sometimes all feel isolated and alone and scared sometimes, but the important thing to remember is that everyone has felt the way you're feeling at least one time in their life. And they'll understand why you feel that way right now.
This weekend I'm asking for quiet and understanding, for comfortable silences, for extra hugs and love, and for time with my family, and friends.
