I just got an email from a school group member, and basically she'd done our entire project over reading week, while I was bumming around the Dominican. Normally this would bug me, as I hate feeling useless in a group, but I know in this case we still have work to do on the project and I can make up for it later.
I don't know what it is about this term, but I can't seem to get my act together. I know that I just have to pull it together for like, two months and then it's time to stress about finding a job, but I just can't seem to care about anything right now, other than napping and going out dancing. oh, and my 24-7 addiction to Facebook.
As an example: I had a paper due at 6 pm tonight, in my night class and had remembered around midnight last night. Instead of staying up to write it, I went to bed and proceeded to write it during the day today. I HAVE to stop doing that. so as punishment for being so lazy, I am going to procrastinate a bit more, then do my Advertising Management reading, as well as my Managing Globalization reading for tomorrow. Evil Twin Vicki is being put away until Thursday night, and Good Girl Niki is going to study and behave herself over the next few days. Ladylike and graceful dignity are the keywords, not the Loud Sloppy Mess that I have become.
I will get things accomplished, and go and run on the track at school and be good.
I swear I will.
Sometimes I look at this blog and hope I'm not as self absorbed as I seem. All this blah blah blah about myself seems narcissistic sometimes, but then the other half of me is like "screw that. you are a narcissist and self-absorbed and an attention hog". So it shall be time for a writing exercise: for the next few days I shall write about people I love, and their lives, and why they are awesome.
p.s. - if i write about you, and you read this; don't tell me. i'll just get embarassed.
