i've always been hesitant to bring others into this blog, keeping it mostly as a journal. since i'm not really sure who reads it, i've never wanted to bring other people's business into the spotlight, for the sole reason that i'm not sure if they would want their laundry aired, whether it be dirty or clean. for that purpose, sometimes people are referred to by initials, sometimes by first names, usually depending on the mood i'm in that day. in the past few days i've tried writing about various people in my life; to try and create a sort of "who's who" in my everyday musings. erin and andrea in the close friend category, brian in the best friend role, alison and leela as roommates, lindsay, julian, and the various others who help me get through my day, and let me call them late at night. the things is, they can't be properly encapsulated, even if i spent an entire page describing them. there's so many nuances and the relationships are so complex that i could never even try.
i do have favourite things about all of them:
how brian is pretty much accessible to talk 24-7. how i worried when he moved to toronto that we'd drift apart, and both get so wrapped up in our lives that we wouldn't talk anymore. i mean, it was easier when he lived down the street and i could walk over in ten minutes, but i like knowing that i can just msn or call, even if it's at three in the morning and he'll make some corny joke and make me feel better about myself usually.
how julian is so instrumental to my development as a better human being. he is so patient with me that it blows my mind, and yet never lets me get away with bullshit. he makes me look inward and see how i really feel about something, and forces me to tell myself the truth. i think i've seen him in a bad mood maybe once, and yet he puts up with my constant melodramatic crazyness and exaggerations.
alison and leela always let me flop on their beds when i get home and complain. they know to give me my space when i've had a shitty week and haven't showered and have crazy hair. they both get up super early and sometimes talk loudly, which pisses me off. they let me eat their food.
in other news, i feel like crap. this cold has gotten the better of me for almost two months, and i'm beginning to suspect either strep throat or bronchitis. so now i have to go to the stupid health clinic and wait for a nurse for an hour, who will then proceed to tell me that i'm fine, even though i'm not.
still ignoring all the work i have to do. i worked on my CV today, now i just need to find jobs to sent it to. what a mundane life i lead. oh. also, jeremy said he might come up to visit from Queen's this weekend. therefore, i am taking this weekend off from any drunken debauchery. i am also taking this weekend off in an attempt to get some of the stuff on my to do list crossed off.
